I realised the other week, in conversation with the herbalist I've sought out to help me alongside the antibiotic therapy I'm trialling, that I have been alone without a man for months and months. For the first time in a very long time. And isn't it ironic, and sad, that I only now realise the value of not depending on another person fully; that I realise that their leaving isn't going to kill me; a lesson I might have learned years and years ago when I was healthy and could have done so much.
But it is only this hideous experience of long-term chronic ill health which has taught me that in fact we are all alone anyway; we are all born alone and we all die alone; everyone, even our children, are just people we are with somewhere along the way.
It is sad, so sad, that I have learnt this lesson only now, perhaps too late to ever put it to any good use.
About Me
- rainbowgirl
- This blog is about coping with the strains of chronic illness whilst bringing up two beautiful children; it's also about the stresses of bringing up two children on your own while suffering with a chronic ongoing health problem which is at times very severe.... you can look at it either way. It's about being a single mum; it's about raising awareness of Interstitial Cystitis; it's about helping me cope. Writing this blog is beginning to bring me back to who I really am, who I really always was, before the single motherhood took over full time, before the illness set in.... a writer. I've always written, from essays to stories to journalism. This is the first thing I've written in years. It's helping me regain my confidence. PLEASE DO LEAVE ME COMMENTS AFTER MY POSTS! I'd genuinely love to hear your views on my (sometimes controversial) opinions. Thank you for taking the time to read. It would be great if you could comment so I know that you've been here and what you think.
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