so I'm trying emptying the capsule into water and it is making me feel less sick, even though I feel like I am taking a kind of poison. but when you are in such constant pain as I am in my bladder/urethral system, you will try anything, and I fought so hard to get the medicine I am hesitant to give it up after not even two weeks. but it seems to be poisoning me from the inside.
mission for tomorrow is to get to the hospital to see the consultant - my father is coming with me - which is good, as he can speak for me when I cry, but bad, if he makes out that all this is somehow in my head (it isn't, it's in my bladder).
am only just hanging in there, for the sake of my children, who are being beautiful, brave and amazing. am doing my very best, but my best doesn't feel very good right now.
more later
About Me
- rainbowgirl
- This blog is about coping with the strains of chronic illness whilst bringing up two beautiful children; it's also about the stresses of bringing up two children on your own while suffering with a chronic ongoing health problem which is at times very severe.... you can look at it either way. It's about being a single mum; it's about raising awareness of Interstitial Cystitis; it's about helping me cope. Writing this blog is beginning to bring me back to who I really am, who I really always was, before the single motherhood took over full time, before the illness set in.... a writer. I've always written, from essays to stories to journalism. This is the first thing I've written in years. It's helping me regain my confidence. PLEASE DO LEAVE ME COMMENTS AFTER MY POSTS! I'd genuinely love to hear your views on my (sometimes controversial) opinions. Thank you for taking the time to read. It would be great if you could comment so I know that you've been here and what you think.
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